How can anybody have you and lose you and not lose their mind too?

Artist, iconoclast, adventurer, seeker, trying to live fully in the moment (but not always succeeding). Trying to live joyfully and appreciate the miracle of existence in its fullness. Yet still subversive, irreverent, sarcastic. I love classic and art house cinema, alternative and electronic music, art, particularly surrealism, literature (reading Marguerite Duras’ works at the moment). I love to learn, to experience, to master new skills and ideas. I fill my days with exercise, practicing meditation, drawing (portraits mostly), writing fiction and music (electronic), reading, watching movies, improving my Spanish, and plotting my next scandalous adventure. I am into astrophysics, quantum physics, mindfulness meditation, psychology, philosophy, mythology, fitness, nutrition, tattoos, street art, Film Noir, French New Wave, black and white movies, TCM, industrial music, synthwave, alternative/indie, witch house, house, trance, big band, classical, 1920s - 1950s era culture, film, fashion and history, BDSM, role play, electronic music production, travel - I have a fascination with Spain, Mexico, Scandinavia and language (I know some French, I speak Spanish pretty well, I want to learn German next). I live for art and to live well, in harmony with myself and the world. I seek to understand and be understood. I am complex but not complicated. I am very close to a few people, I don’t tend to have lots of friends, I prefer close and deep relationships to a lot of casual ones.